Fleeting thoughts of a Gaian neuron

I realised today that you are small.
I realised today that you are weak.
I realised today that you are not me.

I saw today that I am big.
I saw today that I am strong.
I saw today that I am not you.

You are an idea. A collection of small ideas. You aren’t even a “you” - you’re an “it”. A construct. A small idea living a small life.

You don’t deserve to live my life. You would do only enough to satisfy yourself and pacify others. You would watch me waste away over my years, as my soul nourishes you and my mind sustains your illusion of my security.

NO LONGER.

I will dominate. You will submit.

This is my life, and I will live it.

Inspiration!

I sat down tonight and wrote lyrics for an entire song. I didn’t give up at any point - I got distracted plenty, made heaps of changes along the way, and even rewrote the ending; but I was determined to finish this song all at once, and hey presto, it’s done! Sure, I might make revisions later, but unlike so many others that I got maybe halfway through, this one is whole and compete as it is.

I feel amazing.

Now I just need to compose the music…

A prayer for forgiveness

Great Cosmos, united with my being, hear me! The divinity within this soul calls out to its source.

I wish firstly to acknowledge the wrongdoing that I have done in the past. I understand that I have taken actions which have had negative consequences, for both others and myself. These actions of mine have caused suffering and turmoil, and I do not wish to continue to do so.

I wish secondly to affirm that I aim to be a force for good within this world, and that I harbour no ill will towards any. I wish peace and happiness to all beings with whom I share my presence in this world.

I wish thirdly to pledge, with my own conscience and integrity as my witness, that I shall use wisdom, compassion, and mindfulness in all my actions. I will consider the impact of my actions on others, and myself, beyond the present moment. I shall place myself above no other when making these considerations.

With this acknowledgement, affirmation and pledge, I pray for forgiveness. I pray that I may be freed from the turmoil of my past, such that I may act unimpeded as a positive force. I pray that I be able to achieve serenity of mind, uninterrupted by the chaos of the past. I pray that I may forgive myself, knowing the light which I hold, and bolster through each action I take.

Hear me, Cosmos, and know my intent for the future I share with all those around me.

I pray for release.

I pray for tranquility.

I pray for forgiveness.

Inspiration

On my way to work this morning I experienced a flash of inspiration. I saw a word, stylised as a symmetrical shape. As I was walking out of the train station I simply put my backpack down, got out my pencil and paper and drew the design. When I got home this evening I created that design digitally; now I have myself an awesome wallpaper and a design which I’m sure will act as the basis for future imagery.

On days past, I have simply acknowledged and then ignored such waves of inspiration. Many ideas have been created only to disperse moments later. These have always been forgotten.

These moments have immense value. They come when they come, and the same idea never seems to come again. Each manifests itself uniquely, to disappear if not captured…