January 2012
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“Ain’t got no pants on!”
– half of tumblr
My ex-WoW-guild’s motto was “Pants are optional”…
December 2011
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I realised today that you are small. I realised today that you are weak. I realised today that you are not me.
I saw today that I am big. I saw today that I am strong. I saw today that I am not you.
You are an idea. A collection of small ideas. You aren’t even a “you” - you’re an “it”. A construct. A small idea living a small life.
You don’t deserve to...
November 2011
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Crucify The Ego: First. Rebirth →
Everything and nothing that you had possibly imagined…
All the preparation, reading, learning, seeking, & understanding has been futile, until you experience it yourself..
Mild anxiety, watching, waiting…feeling. Is anything happening? Is it working? Am I ok? What have I got myself…
This is excellent!
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Inspiration!
I sat down tonight and wrote lyrics for an entire song. I didn’t give up at any point - I got distracted plenty, made heaps of changes along the way, and even rewrote the ending; but I was determined to finish this song all at once, and hey presto, it’s done! Sure, I might make revisions later, but unlike so many others that I got maybe halfway through, this one is whole and compete as...
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A prayer for forgiveness
Great Cosmos, united with my being, hear me! The divinity within this soul calls out to its source.
I wish firstly to acknowledge the wrongdoing that I have done in the past. I understand that I have taken actions which have had negative consequences, for both others and myself. These actions of mine have caused suffering and turmoil, and I do not wish to continue to do so.
I wish secondly to...
August 2011
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Inspiration
On my way to work this morning I experienced a flash of inspiration. I saw a word, stylised as a symmetrical shape. As I was walking out of the train station I simply put my backpack down, got out my pencil and paper and drew the design. When I got home this evening I created that design digitally; now I have myself an awesome wallpaper and a design which I’m sure will act as the basis for...
June 2011
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“We kick the world around in revenge for feeling that really, we are puppets...”
– Alan Watts - Man in Nature
May 2011
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Dark Night of the Soul
I went through this once. I never completed the journey though. Mine was aborted at the depth of midnight - a shattering experience.
oceanofmind:
“Dark night of the soul” sounds like a threatening and much to be avoided experience. Yet perhaps a quarter of the seekers on the road to higher consciousness will pass through the dark night. In fact, they may pass through several until they...
April 2011
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A fireball rises
I defiantly stand in its way, capturing whatever photons it throws at me.
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March 2011
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“The danger of being lonely is that you easily fall for the very first person who...”
February 2011
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Shut up and play the game
They play it ceaselessly. It’s why they’re so good at it. Sure, most of them don’t realise they’re even playing, but that’s why they get so much practice in.
You’re good at games! Remember that. Stop trying to explain the rules, and just learn them for yourself.
It’s hardly fair, is it? All this knowledge kept secret, never told to another being. The...
August 2010
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In the Now, yet not, somehow
Some experiences are so alien, so unfamiliar, that they almost defy a written explanation of what went on. This is an attempt to capture what happened to me last night.
Setting: In S’s car, off-road in a secluded spot.
Set: Tired due to the lateness of night, ready for some meaningless hedonism.
Well, what’s there to say? Mostly, it was a typical nitrous binge: we had two...
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Is ego the driving force behind the world?
It seems that today’s culture, at least in Western society, is dominated by egoic desire. This realisation came to me while watching TV. Carefully consider most of the characters in any TV show, and it should become apparent that each of these characters are acting almost entirely from their ego, rather than any kind of intellectual thought. The further I investigate the world as it is...
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Time is flying. I hear the wailing of the grave,... →
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July 2010
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“We change ourselves into that which we love, and yet remain ourselves.”
– Letter from Martin Heidegger to Hannah Arendt, in the year of their affair
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This *is* the waking life, right?
Twice in the last month, I’ve had dreams wherein everything has felt so normal, so believable that I’ve been unable to immediately determine that it was a dream. Instead of that slightly-disjointed dreamy feeling, they seem as concrete as memories. The only way I’ve been able to tell for sure that they were in fact dreams has been that the events occurring within the dreams are...
They think I'm crazy for trying to change the...
I think they’re crazy for not trying.
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My experience with karma and animal communication
I had a trip recently wherein I came to a number of realisations. Just two days after this, I have noticed a significant improvement in my happiness, my attitudes toward and actions around other people, and life in general.
Arriving at S’s place, I was greeted by S’s two dogs, B and C, in their now-customary fashion which consists mainly of jumping and trying to get a good solid lick...
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Herein lies a tale
Herein lies a tale.
A tale of how a being came into sentience, established itself, and started trying to make sense of everything it saw in the world around it. Beginning with a struggle for acceptance, with conflicting drives to conform and to separate, it managed to strike a balance between IQ and EQ, and for the first time felt true friendship. It found a place for itself in-amongst a vast...